Well its about 140am and I am obviously not asleep. Have had my sleeping pill and all and nothing. Maybe its my back pain that's keeping me awake. I can take more pain medicine in a few minutes, so I will give that a shot.
In some ways, the back seems better, and in some other ways, just as painful. Driving is very hard on it and always leads to the pain coming back. I have managed rides (thanks to some very gracious friends) for a few things, but today I had errands to take care of, so I drove myself. Pain. Getting to church Sunday morning should be interesting. And to school next week for the 3 days that we have it before Thanksgiving.
This back pain/issue has been very aggravating. I don't like to have to rely on other people for stuff, although they have all be gracious to help out and I know they'd want me to ask for help. Just hate asking for it.
The movie "Soldier" with Kurt Russell is on tv right now. Started a few minutes ago. Its a decent movie. Not one of his greatest, but not too bad either. I have definitely seen worse. Especially when it comes to the late-night, can't sleep, fare. There's a few movies coming out from now through New Years' that I am somewhat interested in seeing. It's hard for me to bring myself to pay $6 -$8 for a matinee though. 'The Dark Knight' is finally at the dollar theater ( its actually 1.50 now, I think). I will probably see it again (3rd time), and buy it eventually on dvd. I enjoyed it that much. I like this series of Batman movies with Christian Bale as 'The Batman'. Its a darker slant to it, and a good, good vs evil slant, and I like that.
I'm going to Kentucky for Thanksgiving. Ride situation is a bit up in the air at the moment cause of my back, but it will get worked out. I get to be away from Wednesday after class until Sunday. That will be a nice break and I am looking forward to the 'getaway' plus the seeing of family and friends.
School's almost done for this quarter. Am so glad. Have a "B" average so far in my math class (big surprise) and I intend to keep it. We 7 actual days of class left, plus the 'final' day. Then I get about a month, not quite, but real close, off before winter quarter starts up in the new year. Looking forward to the break and all that Christmas will bring. My favorite time of year.
Well, I guess I should take some more pain medicine now and try to get back to sleep. I actually fell asleep for about an hour and a half or so, but then the pain woke me up again. Ugh. Tomorrow should be a good day though. A good friend of mine has offered to give me a perm in the morning ( I desperately need it) and then I am meeting up with another good friend later in the day for just some 'hang-out' time etc.
And of course its the day of the big OSU-MICHIGAN FOOTBALL GAME; being played here in Columbus this year. It will be a cold day for it today, but no snow, I don't think. So GO BUCKS! BEAT MICHIGAN!
OSU FIGHT SONG (BATTLE CRY!)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ha6roJfoGjc
SCRIPT OHIO
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XKL7_MSBR7Q
CIE GRANT SINGS "CARMEN OHIO"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8eW2ZBU9UHI
Later ya'll....
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Thursday, November 20, 2008
BE STILL
A VERY, VERY, DEAR FAMILY MEMBER SENT ME A CARD WITH A LITTLE PLAQUE TODAY. THE LITTLE PLAQUE IS PERFECT FOR HANGING ON THE WALL ( WILL HAVE TO FIND SOMEPLACE TO HANG IT WHERE I WILL SEE IT EVERY DAY, TWO OR THREE TIMES A DAY), AND THEY BOTH SAY ALL OF THE THINGS LISTED BELOW. IT'S QUITE A POWERFUL READING, ONCE YOU LET IT SETTLE IN.
I GOT IT IN THE MAIL LATE THIS MORNING AND READ IT ALL SEVERAL TIMES THIS AFTERNOON AND EVENING BEFORE I WENT TO SMALL GROUP TONIGHT; AND IT WAS THERE THAT IF FINALLY SUNK IN. GOD REALLY IS THERE IN ALL OF THOSE TIMES.
WHEN WE ARE TIRED, BROKEN-HEARTED, IN PAIN (PHYSICALLY AND OTHER WISE), LONELY, LOW SELF-CONFIDENCE, 'HOW WILL IT ALL WORK OUT?'; ALL OF THAT. HE IS THERE AND HE IS EVERYTHING THAT WE NEED. EVERYTHING. ALL WE HAVE TO DO IS LET GO AND LET GOD. (EASIER SAID THAN DONE RIGHT?); BUT THAT'S WHAT NEEDS TO BE DONE. SURRENDER IT ALL TO HIM AND LET HIM WORK; BE AMAZED AT HOW HE WORKS AND THEN SHARE THAT WITH SOMEONE TO INSPIRE THEM!
TRY TO SPEND SOME SERIOUS TIME IN THOUGHT OVER THE NEXT FEW DAYS OVER WHAT YOU ARE REALLY AND TRULY THANKFUL FOR; YES, YOUR HOUSE, YOUR HEALTH, ALL OF THOSE USUAL THINGS, I UNDERSTAND. BUT GO DEEPER. MUCH DEEPER. LET GOD SPEAK TO YOU ABOUT WHAT YOU SHOULD BE THANKFUL FOR OR ABOUT. LET HIM USE THIS UPCOMING THANKSGIVING AND CHRISTMAS SEASON TO REALLY WORK IN YOUR LIFE. HE'S WAITING, OPEN THE DOOR TO YOUR HEART AND LET HIM IN. YOU'LL BE AMAZED AT THE PLACES HE'LL TAKE YOU!
BE STILL before the Lord and wait patiently for Him. -Psalm 37:7 (NASB)
When you are the neediest,
HE is the most sufficient.
When you are completely helpless,
HE is the most helpful.
When you feel totally dependent,
HE is absolutely dependable.
When you are the weakest,
HE is the most able.
When you are the most alone,
HE is intimately present.
When you feel you are the least,
HE is the greatest.
When you feel the most useless,
HE is preparing you.
When it is the darkest,
HE is the only light you need.
When you feel the least secure,
HE is Your Rock and Fortress.
When you are the most humble,
HE is most gracious.
When you can't, HE CAN!
"Now to Him who is able to do far more abundantly beyond all that we ask or think, according to the power the works within us, to Him be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus to all generations forever and ever. Amen." - Ephesians 3:20-21 (NASB)
GOD BLESS YA'LL AND KEEP YA TILL NEXT TIME. NIGHT.
I GOT IT IN THE MAIL LATE THIS MORNING AND READ IT ALL SEVERAL TIMES THIS AFTERNOON AND EVENING BEFORE I WENT TO SMALL GROUP TONIGHT; AND IT WAS THERE THAT IF FINALLY SUNK IN. GOD REALLY IS THERE IN ALL OF THOSE TIMES.
WHEN WE ARE TIRED, BROKEN-HEARTED, IN PAIN (PHYSICALLY AND OTHER WISE), LONELY, LOW SELF-CONFIDENCE, 'HOW WILL IT ALL WORK OUT?'; ALL OF THAT. HE IS THERE AND HE IS EVERYTHING THAT WE NEED. EVERYTHING. ALL WE HAVE TO DO IS LET GO AND LET GOD. (EASIER SAID THAN DONE RIGHT?); BUT THAT'S WHAT NEEDS TO BE DONE. SURRENDER IT ALL TO HIM AND LET HIM WORK; BE AMAZED AT HOW HE WORKS AND THEN SHARE THAT WITH SOMEONE TO INSPIRE THEM!
TRY TO SPEND SOME SERIOUS TIME IN THOUGHT OVER THE NEXT FEW DAYS OVER WHAT YOU ARE REALLY AND TRULY THANKFUL FOR; YES, YOUR HOUSE, YOUR HEALTH, ALL OF THOSE USUAL THINGS, I UNDERSTAND. BUT GO DEEPER. MUCH DEEPER. LET GOD SPEAK TO YOU ABOUT WHAT YOU SHOULD BE THANKFUL FOR OR ABOUT. LET HIM USE THIS UPCOMING THANKSGIVING AND CHRISTMAS SEASON TO REALLY WORK IN YOUR LIFE. HE'S WAITING, OPEN THE DOOR TO YOUR HEART AND LET HIM IN. YOU'LL BE AMAZED AT THE PLACES HE'LL TAKE YOU!
BE STILL before the Lord and wait patiently for Him. -Psalm 37:7 (NASB)
When you are the neediest,
HE is the most sufficient.
When you are completely helpless,
HE is the most helpful.
When you feel totally dependent,
HE is absolutely dependable.
When you are the weakest,
HE is the most able.
When you are the most alone,
HE is intimately present.
When you feel you are the least,
HE is the greatest.
When you feel the most useless,
HE is preparing you.
When it is the darkest,
HE is the only light you need.
When you feel the least secure,
HE is Your Rock and Fortress.
When you are the most humble,
HE is most gracious.
When you can't, HE CAN!
"Now to Him who is able to do far more abundantly beyond all that we ask or think, according to the power the works within us, to Him be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus to all generations forever and ever. Amen." - Ephesians 3:20-21 (NASB)
GOD BLESS YA'LL AND KEEP YA TILL NEXT TIME. NIGHT.
Monday, November 17, 2008
Back Pain, A Long Weekend, and the Stupid Raiders
Well, as you can tell by the time stamp on this one, I am wide awake in the middle of the night (215am). I woke up because I was in pain, again.
It has been a long weekend. All last week, was a decent week, no unusual activities or anything. I did suffer from several mini-migraines through out the week, but determined that they were happening because of stress and the big weather change that was coming here at the weekend.
Went to class all 4 days, got the homework etc., done. Found out that I received a 99%-A on my test that I took a week ago Thursday (11/6). I was shocked at that and had to look at the test a couple of times to make sure that it was mine! ;-)
Well, everything was going along well, exercising etc., except for those mini-migraines which affected me from late morning/early afternoon, on. I got very nauseous several times and thought I may actually throw-up, but never did. I would have to take some Excedrin migraine and lay down in the dark for a few hours, but it would eventually go away, although some days it took longer into the evening, than others.
Thursday night, I am home because of one of those migraines. Nothing unusual happens. I try to eat a little supper later in the evening when the nausea has subsided a little bit. I get the dog taken care of (PTL! she has stopped throwing up and is eating normally again!). I get into bed about 9pm because I am still feeling the migraine and just plain worn out.
Friday morning I wake up to find that something is very wrong with my back. I am in a great deal of pain and do not know why. When I went to bed Thursday night, everything was fine, now its not fine. I manage to get the heating pad on it and try to get it relaxed and doing some very mild stretches to see if that will help.
I had a luncheon meeting downtown at 1pm that I very much wanted (needed) to keep. So, I slowly got up and began to get ready. Took a hot shower (hoping that would help also) and slowly got dressed. Right before I left for the lunch, I rubbed some capsazian on it and prayed that God would give me strength to drive to the meeting safely and also give me the strength for the meeting. He did, Bless Him. The capsazian started to wear off just as we were finishing our meeting and getting ready to leave.
Nonetheless, by the time I reached home, I was in quite a bit of pain. I changed into more comfortable clothes and rubbed more capsazian on the affected area. Then I laid down with the heating pad a muscle relaxer to try to get it relaxed and better.
Well Saturday and yesterday were no better. Saturday I managed to shower, cook supper and do the dishes, but by the time I was done with the dishes, I thought I was just going to die, it hurt so bad. It was beginning to hurt down the back of my legs and also bother my neck.
So, yesterday I wake up late for church; aggravated at myself for that. But it has been hard to rest with this pain ( I have a decent pain tolerance and this has just left me in tears at times). I go to look at my cell phone to see if anybody had called while I was sleeping and the crazy thing won't turn on or anything. I try all the usual things (take out the battery, wait a few seconds, place it back it; hook it up to the charger (which it had been overnight).
I am just beside myself. It was a Motorola razor and I have had nothing but trouble with it from day one. I try to call my cell service and of course nobody is around because its Sunday. I do find out that one of the stores near here opens at noon. So, I called hubby to let him know of the cell situation (he already knew about my back because I had texted him Saturday evening, asking for prayer for it and the pain).
So, he said to call the store when they opened and talk with them and see what they say and then call and let him know. So, while I am waiting for them to open, I take another shower and try to sit up a bit, thinking maybe that would help. Well, I couldn't sit up (like on the couch, love seat or dining room chairs) for a very long period of time. The pain and discomfort just makes it impossible. So, I come back to the bed, fully-dressed, and lay on the heating pad (the only thing that seems to alleviate it somewhat) with a blanket and watch football and a movie.
Hubby comes and we go to cellular store. I have to get a new phone. I am not happy with what I got, but didn't feel like I could spend big money to get what I really wanted. I don't know. I may see if I can find something better online that I like and trade. We'll see. I am just not happy with the shape of the phone or the use of the buttons (very difficult for me). Oh, and the best thing is, that nothing can be saved from the old phone. No numbers, pictures, texts or anything. Great. Just Great. So, now I have to go through and get every one's phone numbers again and load them into the new phone.
By the time we get done with that. I am in such pain I am practically in tears. Every bump in the road, every sway of the truck, hurts like crazy. So we go to an urgent care. They were very kind. When we went in, they told us it would be a long wait, which we accepted. However, after some minutes of trying to sit in the chair in the waiting room, I couldn't do that anymore. So, hubby asked if there was a bed where I could go ahead and lay down to wait my turn.
So, they took us back into an exam room that had an actual hospital bed in it and got me situated on that. Oh, sweet relief. And we did not have to wait as long as were told we would have to when we came into the urgent care center.
I did cry some there, especially on the phone with my parents, as the pain was just too much and I did not know how much longer I could tolerate it. So, long story short, they diagnosed me with a pinched nerve somewhere there in the mid to lower back. They gave me steroids to help the swelling of whatever is pressing on the nerve, a different muscle relaxes (temporarily) and blessed pain medicine. The urgent care doc is going to be faxing my information from yesterday afternoon/evening over to my regular doc today ( see her Wednesday), so that she will be aware of the situation. The urgent care doc said my regular doc will probably do an MRI or such, to see exactly what is causing the pinch and where exactly it is at, so that she will know how to continue the treatment better.
Hubby brought me home, got me some food, hung out for a bit, walked the dog for bedtime and then left. I sooooooo appreciated him doing all of that for me. I know that he was tired and didn't want to have to deal with all of this, but I know he could tell that I was in real pain and suffering. So thanks, hubby. I really, mostly sincerely do appreciate it.
So, I am awake cause of the pain. I am getting sleep again (cause of course I took more pain medicine) and the words on the page are starting to blur. I will be glad if I can get back to sleep and just let my body work and heal in its own natural way.
There have been several urgent prayer requests come through my email, from both near and far, for which I have been praying for each one. But, compared to these, mine seems so very minor. But, I ask it anyway, that those of you out there would pray that whatever is causing this pinching of the nerve would abate and that the pain would go away and I would be able to function normally again.
Gotta go to sleep again (Praise God). Am too tired and can't keep my eyes open or think clearer. Will finish this late this morning.
Am back (430am). Never did get back to sleep. Here in a couple of more hours, I can take some more pain medicine to see if that will help. Gosh it hurts. I usually have a decent pain tolerance, but this is beyond that. Way beyond that.
Anyway. Thats it. The dog is doing better and eating normally again, for which I am so thankful. Now, if we can just get me healed up. Any prayers would be much appreciated. Will try to keep in touch as I can.
Oh, and my Raiders lost yet another game yesterday that we actually could have/should have won! We suck. Need new owners and just start over. I am a die hard fan, but this is getting ridiculous!
So, here's some Queen - "Another One Bites the Dust" for my stinky football team and my back.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hMenB9Ywh2Q
Ya'll have a good day.
It has been a long weekend. All last week, was a decent week, no unusual activities or anything. I did suffer from several mini-migraines through out the week, but determined that they were happening because of stress and the big weather change that was coming here at the weekend.
Went to class all 4 days, got the homework etc., done. Found out that I received a 99%-A on my test that I took a week ago Thursday (11/6). I was shocked at that and had to look at the test a couple of times to make sure that it was mine! ;-)
Well, everything was going along well, exercising etc., except for those mini-migraines which affected me from late morning/early afternoon, on. I got very nauseous several times and thought I may actually throw-up, but never did. I would have to take some Excedrin migraine and lay down in the dark for a few hours, but it would eventually go away, although some days it took longer into the evening, than others.
Thursday night, I am home because of one of those migraines. Nothing unusual happens. I try to eat a little supper later in the evening when the nausea has subsided a little bit. I get the dog taken care of (PTL! she has stopped throwing up and is eating normally again!). I get into bed about 9pm because I am still feeling the migraine and just plain worn out.
Friday morning I wake up to find that something is very wrong with my back. I am in a great deal of pain and do not know why. When I went to bed Thursday night, everything was fine, now its not fine. I manage to get the heating pad on it and try to get it relaxed and doing some very mild stretches to see if that will help.
I had a luncheon meeting downtown at 1pm that I very much wanted (needed) to keep. So, I slowly got up and began to get ready. Took a hot shower (hoping that would help also) and slowly got dressed. Right before I left for the lunch, I rubbed some capsazian on it and prayed that God would give me strength to drive to the meeting safely and also give me the strength for the meeting. He did, Bless Him. The capsazian started to wear off just as we were finishing our meeting and getting ready to leave.
Nonetheless, by the time I reached home, I was in quite a bit of pain. I changed into more comfortable clothes and rubbed more capsazian on the affected area. Then I laid down with the heating pad a muscle relaxer to try to get it relaxed and better.
Well Saturday and yesterday were no better. Saturday I managed to shower, cook supper and do the dishes, but by the time I was done with the dishes, I thought I was just going to die, it hurt so bad. It was beginning to hurt down the back of my legs and also bother my neck.
So, yesterday I wake up late for church; aggravated at myself for that. But it has been hard to rest with this pain ( I have a decent pain tolerance and this has just left me in tears at times). I go to look at my cell phone to see if anybody had called while I was sleeping and the crazy thing won't turn on or anything. I try all the usual things (take out the battery, wait a few seconds, place it back it; hook it up to the charger (which it had been overnight).
I am just beside myself. It was a Motorola razor and I have had nothing but trouble with it from day one. I try to call my cell service and of course nobody is around because its Sunday. I do find out that one of the stores near here opens at noon. So, I called hubby to let him know of the cell situation (he already knew about my back because I had texted him Saturday evening, asking for prayer for it and the pain).
So, he said to call the store when they opened and talk with them and see what they say and then call and let him know. So, while I am waiting for them to open, I take another shower and try to sit up a bit, thinking maybe that would help. Well, I couldn't sit up (like on the couch, love seat or dining room chairs) for a very long period of time. The pain and discomfort just makes it impossible. So, I come back to the bed, fully-dressed, and lay on the heating pad (the only thing that seems to alleviate it somewhat) with a blanket and watch football and a movie.
Hubby comes and we go to cellular store. I have to get a new phone. I am not happy with what I got, but didn't feel like I could spend big money to get what I really wanted. I don't know. I may see if I can find something better online that I like and trade. We'll see. I am just not happy with the shape of the phone or the use of the buttons (very difficult for me). Oh, and the best thing is, that nothing can be saved from the old phone. No numbers, pictures, texts or anything. Great. Just Great. So, now I have to go through and get every one's phone numbers again and load them into the new phone.
By the time we get done with that. I am in such pain I am practically in tears. Every bump in the road, every sway of the truck, hurts like crazy. So we go to an urgent care. They were very kind. When we went in, they told us it would be a long wait, which we accepted. However, after some minutes of trying to sit in the chair in the waiting room, I couldn't do that anymore. So, hubby asked if there was a bed where I could go ahead and lay down to wait my turn.
So, they took us back into an exam room that had an actual hospital bed in it and got me situated on that. Oh, sweet relief. And we did not have to wait as long as were told we would have to when we came into the urgent care center.
I did cry some there, especially on the phone with my parents, as the pain was just too much and I did not know how much longer I could tolerate it. So, long story short, they diagnosed me with a pinched nerve somewhere there in the mid to lower back. They gave me steroids to help the swelling of whatever is pressing on the nerve, a different muscle relaxes (temporarily) and blessed pain medicine. The urgent care doc is going to be faxing my information from yesterday afternoon/evening over to my regular doc today ( see her Wednesday), so that she will be aware of the situation. The urgent care doc said my regular doc will probably do an MRI or such, to see exactly what is causing the pinch and where exactly it is at, so that she will know how to continue the treatment better.
Hubby brought me home, got me some food, hung out for a bit, walked the dog for bedtime and then left. I sooooooo appreciated him doing all of that for me. I know that he was tired and didn't want to have to deal with all of this, but I know he could tell that I was in real pain and suffering. So thanks, hubby. I really, mostly sincerely do appreciate it.
So, I am awake cause of the pain. I am getting sleep again (cause of course I took more pain medicine) and the words on the page are starting to blur. I will be glad if I can get back to sleep and just let my body work and heal in its own natural way.
There have been several urgent prayer requests come through my email, from both near and far, for which I have been praying for each one. But, compared to these, mine seems so very minor. But, I ask it anyway, that those of you out there would pray that whatever is causing this pinching of the nerve would abate and that the pain would go away and I would be able to function normally again.
Gotta go to sleep again (Praise God). Am too tired and can't keep my eyes open or think clearer. Will finish this late this morning.
Am back (430am). Never did get back to sleep. Here in a couple of more hours, I can take some more pain medicine to see if that will help. Gosh it hurts. I usually have a decent pain tolerance, but this is beyond that. Way beyond that.
Anyway. Thats it. The dog is doing better and eating normally again, for which I am so thankful. Now, if we can just get me healed up. Any prayers would be much appreciated. Will try to keep in touch as I can.
Oh, and my Raiders lost yet another game yesterday that we actually could have/should have won! We suck. Need new owners and just start over. I am a die hard fan, but this is getting ridiculous!
So, here's some Queen - "Another One Bites the Dust" for my stinky football team and my back.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hMenB9Ywh2Q
Ya'll have a good day.
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