Saturday, March 8, 2008

Life sucks

am having a very bad day. don't really care about anything. hubby and i are gonna watch a movie, hopefully that will relax me a little.

am tired of alot of stuff. haven't heard from hardly anyone. that is causing me problems. i am thinking of dropping out of a lot of stuff. just too much right now and nobody seems to care.


Friday, March 7, 2008

First Day Home

Today was a long day it seemed. It really wasn't, but with the weather getting worse, it seemed like a very long day. We are now under a blizzard warning until tomorrow at 4pm. My husband is helping one of our neighbors shovel and salt the driveway. It's a hill, so if it is not shoveled and salted, it makes it difficult to get your vehicle up the driveway.

I had my female ultrasound this morning. My husband took the day and went with me. The outside part wasn't too bad, but the inside part was very painful and sore. My hubby said it looked like my left ovary was inflamed and dark looking. Couldn't see too much of the right side. Although it too was painful as was my uterus somewhat, but that left ovary is definitely the problem one. They said we should hear something on tuesday. If I haven't heard by tuesday afternoon, I will call the doc myself to see whats up. We are just ready to get it taken care of.

I have an appointment on the 26th with a shrink. He is right here by the house and sounds good. The place comes highly recommended. We are to call the other counselor on the 17th for an appointment. Hopefully we won't have to wait too long on that.

It is tough learning to live with this. Although we found a support group that is next tuesday that we are planning to attend to see if that will help. You know being with other families who are going through the same thing etc.

I haven't smiled very much today which my hubby notices more than anything. I did manage to get through lunch with my mother in law without having a nervous breakdown or anything. It actually went well.

Hubby and I are going to the Columbus Car Show tomorrow afternoon/evening. I am really looking forward to this. We went several years in Cleveland and really liked it and enjoyed ourselves. We didn't make it to last years' show here in Columbus so we are both looking forward to going tomorrow.

I guess thats it for now. Some days I have felt like God hasn't been there at all it has been such a struggle but other days, I know he is there. I got to share quite a bit about God with some people where I was for those few days. God uses all people in all situations.

Anyhow. I thank all of you for your prayers, love and support. I really felt them at times when I was at my lowest.

God Bless All Y'all. I do love ya.

Thursday, March 6, 2008


Am home but it has been a rough day. Am really tired tonight. And have my ultrasound in the morning for the cycts/fibroids etc. Its at 11am. So, we'll see what we see.

I am just really tired tonight. Exhausted. In more ways than one. Will try to write more tomorrow and explain more, we'll see. There are still some people I don't want to know.

Thanks to all of you who have been supportive and sent prayers and love. I have needed it and appreciate it very much.


Wednesday, March 5, 2008

female stuff

on top of everything else, i am having female troubles. they suspect cycts or fibroids down there. i am trying to get the ultrasound moved up til tomorrow because the pain had doubled in the past two days and today i am spiking a fever. this on top of the other stuff. ugh.

just remember me in your prayers. thanks.

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

Need prayer

There is a long story going on. I am not going to go into detail right now bacause I don't want some people to know (not my trusted blogging friends).

Let's just say I have been having some problems and am someplace getting some help. Its going well, but I have been diagnosed with something I never thought I would be diagnosed with (mental). Its a mild form and the meds seem to be working. I will probably get to go home thursday.

There have been alot of issuses in my life that haven't been dealt with and it had all come to a head. After being here and doing research, we find out I have probably had symptoms of this for years and didn't know it. It has been hard on me to be here. Husband, pastor and close friends have been very supportive.

I will explain more later. Just please pray for both for both my husband and I as we learn to deal with this.

I love and miss you guys,